Taking My Life Back

I have been radio silent for a while now. For the past six months I have been experiencing physical ailments that were progressively getting worse.  Dizziness, nausea, vomiting, stomach issues, inability to concentrate and the list goes on. 

I went through testing and after testing to find out what it was.  The answer always seemed to come back to anxiety and my being bipolar.  “Take your medications more regularly” I was told.  I sought the help of my local pharmacist who was amazing – he taught me that some of my medications interacted with others so he put them in a blister pack to make it easier.  No one had ever taught me to take the medications properly before, and I was very appreciative. 

The doctors prescribed more anxiety medications and increased some of my existing meds.  Suddenly my joints started to swell and my heart wouldn’t stop racing. I was prescribed another medication for my joint swelling and then that was it.  I thought I was going to die.

My partner and I reviewed my medications.  There was a lot.  I had a heavy pain relief for migraines.  A medication to curb my appetite to combat the weight gain of another medication.  One for essential tremors I get from taking another medication.  It seemed endless.  We heavily researched the effects of the medications I was on and a couple of them even had warnings of “sudden death” as a possibility.  It was time to take my life back.

With the help of my family doctor, I reviewed the list of medications I wanted to come off.  I was willing to keep the essential lithium but everything else had to go.  It will be a tough couple of weeks he advised but had no problem with my trying this out as long as I kept the fundamentals to treat my bipolar.  He was right – it was tough.

I went through withdrawals.  Sweats, shakes, heart palpitations.  I couldn’t sit still in one place for more than a 60 seconds.  I could feel the chemicals seeping out of my system. But I fought through it.

My psychiatrist was very pleased with the result.  He did caution that my urate levels continued to be very high and was something we would monitor.  I didn’t know that urate levels are typically high for bipolars as it was thought for years to be an indication of the illness. 

A month later, I feel like a brand new person.  I have energy back and none of my previous symptoms.  I still get my bloodwork done regularly and my lithium levels are perfect.  I feel like I have my life back.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *